The Faces of the Divine Feminine and the Goddess Awakening: Phase One - the Dark Goddess
As the Goddess awakens within all of us, we go through many phases before we can embody heart-centered feminine leadership and the many faces of the divine feminine. There is not one face of the feminine that is more important than the others - they are all parts of a multi-dimensional whole and encapsulate the scope and depth of human emotion.
As we move through these phases we are able to go from fierce rage to motherly compassion - from disillusionment, anger and rage at the state of the world to being able to actually elicit meaningful change without the use of the brute force and power games that got us there in the first place.
In the first stages of the goddess awakening within us we will experience rage, anger, distrust of the masculine and mourning for all that the feminine has been put through throughout history, for all of the pain and suffering that has happened in the world at the hand of the wounded masculine. It is in this phase where we reclaim our wild woman and lay aside all of the judgements of the ‘too muchness’ of our raw emotion - the parts of the feminine which have been chastised, rejected or cast away.
This phase can be depicted by the archetype of dark feminine goddesses such as Hecate - Queen of the Witches - and Kali Ma, powerful divine feminine energies who are ready to wage war on anyone who crosses them.
The dark feminine is the liberator.
The holy fire of transmutation, truth and illumination - burning away all that does not serve.
The dark feminine allows us to experience deep and profound transformation through journeying to the depths and alchemising what is there with our love and presence.
The dark feminine within us rages, grieves and desires to unleash her wrath for what atrocities we have done to Mother Earth, to nature, to animals, to each other. We might be in this energy of anger, despair and distrust for quite some time, until we have processed out and felt everything there is to feel. It is the dark feminine’s role to grieve, to feel the pain, feel the betrayal, feel the suffering of the world and truly be present with it, instead of looking away or denying its existence because it’s uncomfortable to face. It is tempting to want to ignore the horrible things occurring all over the world, to live in denial or believe it’s somebody else’s problem, that there is nothing we can do on a personal level to create meaningful change anyway, so what’s the point? It is tempting to want to shut off emotionally from the struggles and plights of others, the suffering of animals, the ways in which we have been pillaging and raping the Earth for centuries, to completely disconnect our hearts and retreat back into separation. But this is exactly what the dark forces are counting on us doing. Our apathy, our denial and our unwillingness to witness what is truly going on have been our biggest downfalls and are what has enabled us to remain in the role of powerless victim for so long.
In embodying the dark feminine, we gain the strength to truly see, to not turn away, to feel and grieve, and to say ‘we are here, we are witnessing what is truly happening, and we will no longer turn a blind eye.’
This phase for me meant journeying to the darkest of places within my psyche and my soul to reclaim my power before I was equipped to face the greater atrocities and issues in the world. I learnt to go into the depth of my grief, my loss, my suffering and my pain instead of looking away or numbing the emotions out. I had to experience clearing my own wounding and pain - facing my internal darkness - to enable me to learn that there is no darkness that cannot be transmuted through a willingness to witness and move through it with love.
Working closely with Kali early on in my initiation journey saw me writhing and seething for months and months on end, releasing all of my anger, bitterness and hate for the masculine. Working with Hecate allowed me to reclaim all of my power and gifts, to heal my witch wound and relive and release all of the lifetimes my soul has suffered as a result of sharing her feminine gifts. I was in this darkness for quite some time and at times it became very tempting to stay within my dark feminine - losing myself in the intensity of my emotions - rather than move through to the next cycle and begin to embody the ‘light’ aspects of the feminine. I learnt in this phase that no matter how dark it gets, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. I found that the deeper I dove, the stronger I became.
As we progress on our individual journeys and heal the wounds within us - sexual abuse, past life trauma from times where we’ve been abused, raped, murdered and belittled at the hands of men - we are able to open our hearts again: to forgive, to practice compassion and understanding.
We are able to move into the role of the mother, the lover, the wise woman - which I will be covering in the next blog posts.
If you are dying to know more, I talk more about this as a guest on the podcast episode below which also facilitates a deep cellular activation of divine feminine energy.
If this has awakened something in you and you are wanting to move through the journey of embodying the goddess within, of reclaiming all of the faces of the divine feminine and creatrix consciousness so you are able to feel juicy, at home in your body and in love with life, creating heaven on Earth - check out Gifts of the Goddess where this is the exact journey of descent and ascent you will be taken on.