We need to remember that this work - this trauma - goes far beyond our lifetimes. The imprint of abuse and (dare I say) the subsequent hate towards the masculine runs through our ancestral lines and in our DNA.

Your reaction is justified, and real, even if you can’t attribute it to something you have a tangible memory of.

Your mothers, your grandmothers, other versions of You across other timelines have suffered at the hands of the masculine. Your rage, your distrust, your hate is justified…

And it’s also not serving anyone to hold onto anymore.

You know you’re here on earth to do great things, but fact is you’re so afraid of what may happen, so you take no steps at all.

It’s likely that deep down, you’re simply afraid of using your gifts as a Lightworker. It runs deep. By deep, I mean past lives deep.

There’s a misguided notion in the healing and wellness space that we must constantly be healing until the day we die. This has many of us trapped in a healing hole, a deep hole where our ego’s use vicious cycles of healing to keep us in suffering mode.

This notion is dangerous because it perpetuates endless ‘healing’ black holes where we get stuck in constant up and down cycles of healing, purging, and clearing. We never stop to fully integrate, nor do we ever ‘reach’ our destination because we always believe there’s more we must clear and more we must heal.

The concept of karma is often misunderstood and misinterpreted by most people who use the comforting potential of spiritual vengeance to help them to feel better when another human does something shitty to them (‘ohhh, don’t you worry, Susan - you may have taken my parking spot, but you’ll get what’s coming to you’). The karma you have previously accrued plays heavily into the things that show up in your life, and the obstacles you will have to overcome in order to fulfil your soul’s purpose. Karma is not cosmic punishment for the ‘wrongdoings’ you have made, it is a choice that our souls make and continue to make based upon the desire to have the full spectrum of experiences.

You are destined to play out certain dynamics and unfulfilled karma with particular souls - soul mates, karmic relationships and the elusive ‘twin flame’. No matter which dynamic it is, there is a sense of true love - an unshakable bond, instant connection, magnetic pull, a feeling of familiarity - within these connections which is intoxicating and also incredibly confronting if you’ve never experienced this deep love before. It can also be the cause of some incredibly toxic behavior rearing its ugly head (particularly in karmic relationships, where your only goal is to learn the lesson and release yourself from the toxic behaviour, and thus, end the contract). You might feel yourself questioning your sanity as to how you can feel this way about someone you just met. You might feel as though you’ll never love like this again (spoiler alert, you can and you most likely will). You might find yourself planning your future wedding, fantasising about your entire lives together or picking out baby names. And for some of these connections, that might be a reality. In truth, you never know whether someone is a karmic, a soulmate, or your twin - if they are here for a reason, a season or a lifetime - until you’re already too deep and too involved to tell the difference.